I have lived most of my adult life with clinched fists. I don’t mean physical clinched fists. I mean, a clinched fist in spirit. I tried so hard to be good but never could be good enough, in my mind and heart. I beat the hades out of myself. Claiming to be a Christian but focused on my “feelings” instead of on having the faith in God’s never ending love and grace. If I worked hard and did good, in my mind, better than others, I had faith. If I didn’t do as well as someone else then I didn’t live my life in faith. Routinely throwing my hands in the air when I didn’t live up to my definition of being a Christian, I would then give up my faith walk for a season. If I slipped a wordy durd, drank too much, lost my temper, etc I would just double down on my bad deeds and go down the “rabbit hole” as my wife says. How could I be a Christian without restraint required to be a good boy? The cycle repeated itself over and over. Man, was I ever living under the law. All that grace talk, I did it but I didn’t get it.
There is nothing like an experience of grace. Finally getting it in that I live by God’s grace and through faith. It’s one thing to say it and another to get it. It’s a gift. A charitable gift. I’ve been given a gift from an incredible and charitable giver who knew when He gave the gift of grace to me that I was but a poor boy who would never be able to repay this great gift. I am made worthy by the work of the obedient lamb of God and my bad life hid in His good life. When the Father sees me, He sees Jesus.
Hosanna! Hosanna! Hosanna! Blessed forever is my Jesus. I adore Him.
Fists are unclenched. My heart is open. I just want to put on some bright colors and dance the night away with my bride. Some good 80s music, a big ole smile and have some fun. Lol. 🕺 Life is so good. Everlasting life.
Stay Busy as a Bee my friends. Busy about the Lord’s business and His business is love, mercy, trust, grace, charity, and faith. There is no law against self love, self care and love of the brethren and the sisters.
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A testimony Friday, September 3, 2021