I know whom I have believed. I have and do believe in Jesus Christ and I am not ashamed.

I read that my Father’s house is a great house and in His house are vessels of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay, some for honor and some for dishonor.

I know that I have dwelled in my Father’s house as a vessel of dishonor. Though I have believed and experienced the grace of my Lord and savior, I have often grown faint of heart. I have committed many sins without repentance until recently. I came clean with the Lord, August 21, 2021.

I went my own way for so long. Strife, faithless living, desiring the things of the world, lukewarm, lazy at times, gluttonous, bore false witness, judgemental, given to wrath, not always gentle and so on. I didn’t use my liberty as a cloak of maliciousness. I never had bad intentions. I was saved. He calls the good and the bad to the marriage feast. At times, I just gave in. My righteous soul vexed by this world of sin and iniquity.

Whatsoever is not of love and of faith is sin. I did a lot of things that wasn’t of love or of faith. I dishonored my Father. It would have been better if I hadn’t known God than to know God and to live without faith in God.

I have been a vessel of dishonor, of wood and clay compared to the steadfast saints that I know. They, though there are few of them, are my heroes in the Lord and are vessels of honor.

I will do my best to become a vessel of honor unto the Lord with my remaining days. I will work on being steadfast during good times and bad times. I will limit my speech to yeas and nays more often and do my best to speak with gentleness even when provoked. I have a long way to go and a short time to get there.

With me, it’s impossible to become a better person or a vessel of honor but I know that all things are possible with God.

For now, I rest in feeling accepted by my God and I have peace during the daily visitations with the Lord.

Thank you, God, for being mindful of me whether I’m good or bad. There is none good but you God. Besides you, there is no other.

A testimony Monday, November 1, 2021