Reading this morning I find in Jeremiah chapter 7 where God admonishes me and says do not walk after other gods to your hurt.
I did.
I don’t walk after mythical gods and goddesses as some do today. I know some young people that claim to worship mythical deities, cast spells, and so on. Perhaps they should read of the life of the Witch of Endor? With that said, I have a lot more confidence in those kids than I do my former self. Those kids are trying to find their way and I know God winks at their ignorance as they try and find Him. He will reveal himself in the right season to those that seek authentic worship with the one true God. I can’t blame them for their situation. It has been adults like me that they watched and found no genuineness in. They seen me go to church but still live an empty and hollow existence. They seen me come out of church and then go right back to the weak and beggerly elements of the world. They realized my worship was a charade and pretense. I can’t fix it but I can redeem the time and introduce them to Jesus, not with my words but with my behaviors moving forward. I hope they begin seeing what I feel in my heart; love, joy, peace, a quiet and meek spirit, patience with people and situations, a gentle hand, self control with eating and drinking, faith, protection, more wisdom, no longer a brawler, and much self control of my tongue.
The gods I used to walk after were much more violent and caused much more hurt on my mind and body than any mythical gods worshipped by others.
My gods were instant gratification, food, drink, worry, shame, judgement, self-judgment and legalism. Oh, and don’t forget people. People were my god too. My sweet savior was an after thought. My communion wasn’t with Him daily.
All of my little gods hurt me and were miserable comforters. They left me in the pit, sinking. I couldn’t get out of that pit. How do I know that my false gods hurt me? How do I know that obeying the voice of God and inclining my heart and ears towards God has transformed me?
The difference in how I FEEL and the difference in my state of mind is stark. As well, self acceptance. I have found true self-acceptance and the only place I could find true self acceptance was in Christ Jesus.
I didn’t have joy before. I was depressed. My smiles were fake. I cloaked anger daily. I was bitter. I lacked enthusiasm for life. I felt I carried the weight of the world of those around me on my shoulders. I can go on.
Since Saturday, August 21, 2021 and inclining my heart and ear to my Lord and savior Jesus Christ I have stopped walking in the dictates of my evil heart and I have began arising from sleep thanking my Jesus, connecting with my Jesus, and giving my God praise.
My cup runs over each and every morning and most days. I have no clue what’s happening in the world with politics, religion, vaccines, or anything else. I render to Caesar what is Caesar’s but after that I’m done with it. I work heartily as though unto the Lord. I eat unto the Lord. I dress unto the Lord. Everything I do I try to do unto the Lord and my soul grows fat daily.
God is the Spirit. Neither male or female. God is omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent. God has told me who to worship and it is clear to me. I worship the spirit and character of Jesus. In Jesus is the fullness of the Godhead bodily and I am COMPLETE in Him. I believe in Jesus by grace and through faith.
Yes, that’s what I’m feeling that I didn’t feel when worshiping the gods of this world. I didn’t feel complete and now I do.
Praise God! Today is going to be beautiful. I suspect the lover of my soul will do something amazing and miraculous this day. What a good God I worship and He does answer by fire. It’s a good fire. I dance in His fire today before the entire house of Israel.
A testimony Monday, October 11, 2021