One definition of sin is going against one’s own self. A person that goes against their own self cannot stand for long. A kingdom that wars within itself cannot stand for long.

I’ve dealt with many unclean spirits within my own bodily members. My mind has often conflicted with my body. My flesh has warred against my spirit. I’ve dealt with the unclean spirits of judgement, regret, shame, faithlessness, and self abasement. No one in their right mind would allow those unclean spirits to settle in and make their home in the heart. I’ve been a worrier. I’ve been a bitter man at times. All the while, I would also try to be good to people, minister to people, and do good works. I was at war with myself.

While half of me did good, the other half of me was fighting unclean spirits. (Any spirit not of the Christ or not of Christ’s love, in my estimation, is an unclean spirit.).
When I could stand no longer, Jesus, the lover of my soul, has been moved with compassion concerning me and reestablished my going’s. He’s done it again. He has done a mighty work in my heart.

His love lights my way. Though I face uncertainty this morning over many things I am faced with, I will trust Him. I’ve enjoyed my morning sacrifices.

My sacrifices have been not grievous. Actually, have been no sacrifice at all but a profound delight. My sacrifice has been a cup of coffee or a Spark, lol. I’ve written down my intentions and heart. I’ve written down the questions or prayers I have. I’ve confided my uncertainties and fears to Him. I’ve anchored to His love and guidance. I’m deeply trying to rely on His providence and say, “Never the less, not my will but thy will!”, knowing that He, My Father, Mother, Brother, Friend, and Husband wants better for me than I want for myself.

Because I am just a man, this morning I heard unclean spirits knocking on my heart’s door. I usually let them in. This morning I went and locked the door with a lock that said “Jesus, says you cannot come in here.”

A testimony Wednesday, September 8, 2021