This may not be the best time for you to begin the Shibboleth program. Inadequate motivation and commitment together with unrealistic goals could block your progress. Think about the things that contribute to this, and consider changing them before beginning a diet or lifestyle program.
You may be close to being ready to begin a new program and lifestyle but should think about ways to boost your preparedness before you begin. Shibboleth can help you with your WHY, but you must supply the willingness to learn.
The path is clear with respect to goals and attitudes. You are very prepared to learn the Shibboleth Lifestyle.